30th May

Super Early Morning (0000-0300)

Was working on the site, it did not go to the jt-pandey.tk domain. Tried hard, but 000webhost limits a lot of these features, so not trying it anymore. For the time being, just going to add the nameservers.

At around 2:20 there was a power cut and the part of that power cut is mostly a boring blur, it does not deserve any mention here. Uday and I just wasted all the time we could. Waited for the people in authority to come up with something which would make it seem reasonable. They did not. Anyways, getting to AIT was a bad decision.

Early Morning (0300-0600)

Power came back on at around 0415, but before that I tried to make sure I do not get bored, so met two people on Omegle, one from Bengal and one from United Kingdom. It was quite an experience, one was doing law and other carpentry. And the moment I started enjoying it, they banned me, omegle. And on top of that, USB tethering and Wi-Fi tethering stopped too.

Once power came back on, I saw that there was barely any place to sleep on my own bed thanks to Sable. But somehow I managed. Again quite an experience.

Morning (0600-0900)

Woke up late, though atleast I woke up (thanks to Sagar). Thankfully got to eat some nice breakfast (pav bhaji). It was a tad bit spicy, but it worked nice. After coming back, I used my phone and slept a bit and woke up in late morning.

Late Morning (0900-1200)

At around 1145, I planned that I need to set things straight. I decided that I should take a bath. But with that plan, I thought why not enjoy stuff first. So procrastinating took hold of me and I finally took a bath in afternoon.

Afternoon (1200-1500)

Wasted some time in the late morning but atleast I took a bath at around 1245, though I missed lunch. Did not quite regret it though. Anyways, went for the BXE class but it turned out it was actually the EGR class. During the class, I was just reading Berserk. I think I am addicted. It’s quite enjoyable.

After the class, it was the PBL class, wasted a bit of time there, then a lot of time waiting for my friends. And I do regret it. We came back to our rooms around 1430, but did not make or do anything productive.

Also, Adhiraj came to our room, talked to him about some stuff, just random stuff.

Late afternoon (1500-1800)

Had some snack.

Went to Narendra’s room for a bit after I sponsored 4 ice creams for our group, and it started raining cats and dogs. Some hailstorm to make it more tasteful. Read some more Berserk. It was quite good. Enjoyed it.

Maggi with my friends. Had a few laughs watching some Tanmay Bhatt videos. It was a waste of time, but I did not regret it.

Early Evening (1800-2100)

Okay, here the things get interesting. I was already full. Ankit asked for his aadhar card. I don’t think he or anyone for that matter cares for me. He just thinks I need him. I don’t.

Now, the first mistake was that I texted her. I regretted that decision so much and at the time of writing, I still regret it.

For some real talk, what is going in my brain right now is that I am just a dumbass and people don’t actually care for me all that much as much as I think. It’s just sad. Anyway, back to the topic.

We went for dinner and the finals was on. We started our dinner and Ankit and Aditya joined in between.

Evening (2100-0000)

I finished dinner. Then texted Pankaj Rai because he wanted something from me(obvious). Went to his room, he gave me 9 pages and made sure that I do not feel like I am being used so he offered me some perks (just a badge and a file-types).

Got back to the room and just wasted as much time as I could. Around 2300, I prepared myself to start working, but since our room is a public room, there were Sable and Prabhat and they were disturbing me so much.

So all in all it was just simply stupid and on top of that she was offline. I think she hates me too. My roommates too, because they act like I do not deserve basic human dignity and respect. That’s sad for a human like me.

Something off topic here, Kritika Singh from Amity University Gwalior replied. I think she finds me funny. But it doesn’t matter, I’ve worked with women enough to know that whatever looks on the surface is barely the truth. Anyways, got some leads for our story. Might as well work on that.

Final Words

I read Berserk.

I wasted a lot of time on Internet and on my friends, can be simply cut down.

I deserve basic human dignity, so I need to act like I have boundaries.

Also, I think I should focus more on my health, and that can only happen when I put myself and my happiness and hygiene first.

Also, I need to make sure I utilize every single moment of my day which I waste into something where I do not need to put too much brains, like doing some assignments or something.

And finally, I don’t think she actually liked me. It was all a bluff, she was just bored. She had some mood swings or something. I need to focus on myself. She is a great individual, but not a great individual for me.

FOCUS ON YOURSELF, UTILIZE EVERY MOMENT, STOP WAITING FOR PEOPLE.

Todo

These are the things I plan on doing tomorrow:
a) Read atleast two volumes of Berserk, even though you might not absorb all of it
b) Make this site come on jt-pandey.tk domain.
c) Write up that story.
d) Do some programming.
e) Once that's all done, complete all assignments as much as possible.
f) Lastly, go through everyday and make sure that you're making it easy for Tomorrow's Jatin.
ALL THE BEST <3