Started the day off late again, it was 1000, missed my lectures and PBL due to Tomar. After that, had lunch. I think I am easily influenced by people around me. Sometimes I think i should talk less, I have to use this trick in my everyday life.
Now for the trek, I talked to her again, it was fun but I guess I disturbed her, and also broke my resolution that I should not talk to her, anyways. After that trek we had dinner for which I paid, but I am not paying anything for these freeloaders, not anymore. It’s now high time that I start taking my money back. I don’t think I can trust these people anymore with anything else other than cheap talks. They’ve helped me enough, and as of now I think I have returned the favor. So there’s that.
Now time for some internal monologue.
After reviewing my whole day in the cold shower, I have come to the conclusion that there is only one thing that can take me out of my misery. That one thing is thinking things over. Thinking twice is the thing that will help me. If I stay calm, I can stay happy. I love my life, I love people around me, but being very impulsive is costing my mental peace. Before spending money, before wasting time, before anything that will make me regret my decision, I have to take a moment and decide. And this is especially important whenever I decide what to say. I should take a moment back, I should just think what I have to say, and come up with something that should be good.
To sum it all up, I am happy and contend with my life and I just want to do something good with something that I have got. Thanks for reading and your patience. Writing my journal for 5 days now, I can see a difference in my thinking from time to time. I am now realizing how I am impulsive in my thoughts, and how I can change it. Cheers.
Regarding the upload on the static site, I am going to do it on the 7th day, starting on the 7th of the month, then 14th, 21st and so on. This will make it easier for me to upload and also it will not make it chore, lest it should become tedious and I stop enjoying it. Prost.
