My day can be divided into four main events. The first one was waking up all gloomy and then getting all sad writing the blog entry that I wrote in the morning. After that I continued my day like that. Surprisingly people were respecting me more. Will continue like that from now on.
Then after that second phase, when I got my phone back and everything got back on line. I started talking to people again like nothing happened. I was happy and the usual chirpy. People started respecting me less. No doubt it had to do with the face and the expressions which say that though this guy has some serious antics on his face, he is a softie from inside and can be exploited.
After that the third phase which included me talking to her. I feel so happy after talking to her. I love her so much. A message from her just brightens up my day. I lover her so much, its fucking unreal. And today was quite interesting. I got so many voice messages from her. What I am going to do is that I will delete all the messages from my side then listen to hers on repeat. I’m so happy.
Then after that I went for the CTF. Though I was quite disappointed with my performance, the CTF did not impress me much. It was basically flawed at every level and the news that Gulshan and team scored more than me made me re-think my decision to continue cybersecurity. Anyway, I will continue, it’s my dream nonetheless. I enjoyed some of the earlier problems.
Now after that I started receiving messages from her again. I got happy again. She’s just so cute and smart at the same time. I did not know that this was possible at the same time. I wish I could tell her how much I love her. But again, if you have to proclaim that you believe in something or certain way of life, then do you really believe in it. I think that’s the thing with me now. I will let it stay hidden for now. Let’s just stay friends for now. I am happy like this. Atleast I am not hurting her or myself anymore. So that was enough for today.
Have to fill Sonakshi’s form tommorrow morning, the moment I wake up, I am going to get into it and finish it before I go for lunch. Also, I have ISDF class, and me being the socially awkward teen I am, I will waste my entire day preparing for that one thing. Anyways. for the time being, Good night, I am feeling quite sleepy. Ciao.
